"Not Guilty"....... just saying.
I was surfing the web on how felons get their life back after all they have been through.
After reading a story of another person who was arrested for trying to defend himself, I started crying because I know exactly where he is coming from.
The crime I was supposedly involved in, I had no idea even happened till 2 years after My ex-husband and I had been divorced. The investigator was giving him a lot lesser conviction if he had someone he could blame or "made him do this" and that's how I got involved after he had admitted to doing the whole thing.
He and I both were to have no contact with our children for 2 years but he did and they found out and he went from 5 years in jail to 15 yrs to life prison, on that day his lawyer called him in and told him it had changed, Child Services found out he had been talking to his kids and he went home and committed suicide.
I did my time, my family hired a lawyer, but my family did most of the work for him. I went to court many times just to be postponed which led to a longer time to serve.
I really have been trying to make a whole new life to repair the hurt, distress, pain, mental stress, and more mental stress and of rebuilding my life for a crime I didn't even know about.......
I am still trying to make sense of it all, and it has been 3 years since probation. I was on probation for 3 1/2 years. Jobs are impossible because nobody wants to hire a prior felon.
The most important thing about all of this is Jesus was with me through it all. When I went to jail I went through the fingerprinting and the whole works. I had never been in trouble at all, not even in school.
I was terrified. When I got arrested I was taken in a police car in handcuffs. My husband was standing at the door, tears rolling down his face, and said "God is in control". When I got to jail they gave me that famous orange suit. They were very low on supply, so the pants had these words "Jesus loves you", which comforted me so much, especially since the only place they could put me was in a holding cell with a girl who had just beat somebody up.
God knew I was going to jail that day before the day ever got there. I was arrested on a Thursday, the jail always had Bible study on Wed but God had her doing something else because He knew I was going to be there Thursday and I would need her and yes, she came Thursday night because she couldn't make it Wed., she had something else she had to do.
The next morning we went before the judge. There were 4 of us, one girl wasn't getting a bond, she had been in trouble way too much, she was there for a while. The other 2 had very small bonds, but mine was 2500.00 that's only 10 % of the bond, that's what I had to come up with to get out.
We went back to the cell. One of the girls was so cocky, and she said I'll be there first to get out then pointed to me and said you'll be the last, I said “No, I have a God who can do anything” and I was the first one to leave. I made a phone call to my husband, he called our church and he was there shortly after that and I got out.
We went to court, I was facing life in prison, if I went to trial and they found me guilty, (which I had 3 people telling lies on me, 2 kids and 1 adult) so my Public defender (before the lawyer) advised me that the jury will believe the kids 99% of the time, so when I went to court I agreed to a plea. I got 5 years probation and got off in 3 1/2 because I had all my fines paid and for good behavior. God is so good.
We are to forgive and forget, do I forgive, yes because it would be a sin if I didn't,
My prayer is that the 2 kids that told the lies, is for them to find God and to get saved.
Forget, it's hard to forget when it is still following me around, I'm over all of this except how God showed up and showed out, which was the best part, He never left me nor forsake me,
- Hebrews 13:5-6 "Let your conduct be without covetousness, and be content with such things that you have, for he has said, 'I will never leave you, nor forsake you,' so that we may boldly say, 'The Lord is my helper, and I will not fear what man shall do to me.'" (emphasis mine)(Many, if not most, of us have probably been in physical need at some time. All of us are in spiritual need, and will remain that way as long as we live in this body of flesh with its carnal nature, its lusts, phobias, hatreds, jealousies, and myriad other sinful proclivities. But God does not abandon us. Never.
We can always trust in him to be there for us, no matter how hard and how far we fall. The word "never" in this passage is from "ou me", in Greek what is known as an emphatic negative . In other words, "never" means just that! Never!) - 2 Corinthians 4:7-11 "But we have this treasure (speaking of the truth of the Gospel and the knowledge
It destroyed all the dreams I had for my life, as far as me not able to find work. I had dreams to be an EMT, a nurse, or a police officer but now I can't be none of them, that will be on my record forever, all I can be is the person sitting at the computer telling all of this..... why am I saying this? I don't even know, except to give God the glory through it all, because it could have been a lot worse, and my faith in God grew more than it ever has and I have been in church all my life, I got saved when I was 12, and God has blessed me with an amazing family.
So now I just stay in His Word, and trust in Him,
Jeremiah 29:11
New Living Translation (NLT)
11 For I know the plans I have for you,” says the Lord. “They are plans for good and not for disaster, to give you a future and a hope
I love you all!
Faith~
