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I struggled daily, but no more

 I got saved when I was 12 year old. I remember the day but not the message or the date. My grandfather was preaching and  I must of been paying attention, because I went forward and He asked me did I ask Jesus to come into my heart and I said , "yes sir" and that all I remember. 

As any teen I strayed away, or did I even really accept Jesus into me heart that day? I dont really know but I kept going to church and loved it, and tried to live right but then in Sept. 2002 I do know I asked Jesus to come live in my heart and I surrendered my all to Him. 

I have been in church all my life, and I love going to church, I read my Bible, and do all the things I am taught to do when you are a Christian, but I just felt this void, do I know that if I died right this second I would go to heaven? yes, no doubt but there again was still like this empty spot. It's like having a husband that you are madly in love with but there is just something not connecting. 

I got advice from my sisters and asked them what do you do? I tried all of that too, then finally I started blogging and talking to him and pouring out my feelings and sitting in a room, with just me and God it started happening, when I started writing from my heart here comes that connection, the void has been filled, the desire I longed for is here. 

 So now I will be blogging and journaling and feeling that connection with my Father. It's all in talking to Him, not just in prayer but as a best friend. 

Time with God

Good morning, 

I don't have many followers and that's fine, I come here not because of me, but because of God, my life is not my own, for what it's worth, it's all Gods. It's worth more than words a can say. Because He surrendered His only Son to die on the cross for our sins so we can live in heaven with him forever!! 

I have thought about it often lately, but when I die I do not want people mourning for me....... I want them to rejoice with me, cause I will be with my Jesus, the one who died for me. I personally don't know if I
could let someone whip me with chains and spikes, then crush a crown of thorns on my head and then nail me to a cross. But Jesus did, for you and for me.... Then 3 days God brought Him to live in heaven with Him forever and Jesus is alive today and He is coming back to gets us. If you are not saved and would like to experience it just close your eyes and just imagine you are face to face with Jesus and better than the best friend you can have, he is there with you, ask him to come to live in your heart. Tell him you believe in him and you want to spend forever with him in heaven. Then finish your prayer with "in Jesus name I pray, Amen". then tell everyone you know so they too can do the same, and then when you die you won't have to be scared or wonder what happen to the loved one you just lost, because you will see them again in heaven. 
 I  have an older brother, and a niece that passed away when they were babies and i cant wait to meet them when i go to heaven. So at my funeral, it may seem different but that's fine with me, it will be a joyous time. Butterflies will be released at my funeral. It will represent a time in my life when I was in a cocoon,(a time of trials) then while there, God created me to be this beautiful butterfly he released after it was made in His image.

Will I miss everyone here sure I will but I will always be with them in my heart. 
 You will experience Jesus like that too, He will never leave you nor forsake you. He will stick closer than a brother.
 His word, the Holy Bible tells you how awesome God and shows us all about His love. It will guide you always! 

Deuteronomy 31:6

New Living Translation (NLT)

6 So be strong and courageous! Do not be afraid and do not panic before them. For theLord your God will personally go ahead of you. He will neither fail you nor abandon you.”

I hope you enjoyed this. Remember, no matter what you go through in this life, God is always with you and this place is not your home. He is building a mansion in heaven for you!