I got saved when I was 12 year old. I remember the day but not the message or the date. My grandfather was preaching and I must of been paying attention, because I went forward and He asked me did I ask Jesus to come into my heart and I said , "yes sir" and that all I remember.
As any teen I strayed away, or did I even really accept Jesus into me heart that day? I dont really know but I kept going to church and loved it, and tried to live right but then in Sept. 2002 I do know I asked Jesus to come live in my heart and I surrendered my all to Him.
I have been in church all my life, and I love going to church, I read my Bible, and do all the things I am taught to do when you are a Christian, but I just felt this void, do I know that if I died right this second I would go to heaven? yes, no doubt but there again was still like this empty spot. It's like having a husband that you are madly in love with but there is just something not connecting.
I got advice from my sisters and asked them what do you do? I tried all of that too, then finally I started blogging and talking to him and pouring out my feelings and sitting in a room, with just me and God it started happening, when I started writing from my heart here comes that connection, the void has been filled, the desire I longed for is here.
So now I will be blogging and journaling and feeling that connection with my Father. It's all in talking to Him, not just in prayer but as a best friend.
Perfectly said! Thank you for sharing this. I think many of us struggle with this same desire to be personal/intimate with God, Jesus and Holy Spirit. Your sharing your struggle and arrival are inspiring
ReplyDeleteawe Thank you. its not me but God who lives in me.....
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